Purpose

I am fastly approaching that one year mark of motherhood! INSANE!! Still can’t believe it. While I thought I learned a lot about myself through the darkest times of my life, struggling with fertility complications, I feel like I have learned even more about myself since becoming a mom.

A lot has happened in such a short time..I don’t even know where to begin. I do know, finally becoming a mother has been the greatest blessing! I believe I was meant to be a mom. It has brought so much happiness back in my life, I can’t get enough!

That goes without saying though. I expected being a mom was going to be amazing and uplifting. I wouldn’t have fought so hard for it, if it wasn’t what I truly wanted to become. Being a mom is one thing though. You go into auto pilot mode and just GO. But I still need to be a wife, an aunt, a sister, a cousin, a daughter, a friend, a co-worker, an employee, the list goes on and on. However, being a MOM will always come first. NO. MATTER.WHAT!

I have had such a bigger outlook on life recently. It's like once I become a mom, it opened up so many "windows." Not doors necessarily, but windows. Windows of realization in a way. Showing me what is really important in life, what TRULY matters, what brings me happiness and what does not, what is worth my time and what is not, what my purpose on this earth is. I know, deep right?! I thought so, too, but it is true! I do not know how else to explain it.

I believe everyone has a purpose on earth. We were put here for a reason, not just to pay bills and die. Not to work, work, work just to make ends meet. Not to wake up everyday and do something that does not light our soul on fire, in a good way of course! We are given this one life to live and we cannot live it for other people. Find out what it is that brings you the most happiness and stick with it. Even if it is just a hobby or a side job. If everyone was able to do what they truly loved, every day, maybe there wouldn't be so much negativity in the world. Wishful thinking, I know!

I want so many GREAT things for my daughter, and for our family. I want to be able to teach her to be strong and to always stand up for herself and what she believes in. I want her to grow up around happiness. Around people who love her and want to be in her life. That is what LIFE should be about. You only get one. So surround yourself with positive energy, as much as you can!

Ok, so this is more of a venting blog. But most of the time that's the gist of them anyway. Just let it all out, get it out there. It seriously makes you feel better, I swear. I learned this ALOT from writing my blogs about infertility. Writing is amazing therapy. You have no limits, no rules. I also learned, being raw about LIFE, in general, you can reach out to many people. They can relate!

So what is YOUR purpose?

Try even writing about it to yourself. Putting it on paper (or a computer screen) and actually seeing it, feeling it as you start writing, you would be surprised what you can get out of that!

That is all!