One Month

Wow! It's already been ONE MONTH since I gave birth! Time really does fly by with these little ones. This past month has been one of the most exhausting, yet rewarding months of my life! 

On top of trying to take care of myself, mentally and physically, after a C-Section, I've been learning how to be a mom! It's true when people tell you, you can never truly prepare for what comes with being a first time mother. And that first month...what a rollercoaster! 

You're emotions are just all over the place! Thanks hormones!! Some days I would just start crying and have no idea why I was crying. Some days when baby girl was fussy and only happy against my chest, I felt like I was doing something wrong. Some days the thought of entertaining company was like nails to a chalk board to me! Some days I did not even want to eat. Some days, no matter how exhausted I was, I couldn't sleep when I had to opportunity to. 

However, no matter how you may be feeling, you push through it! I knew being a mom was not going to be a walk in the park! But I knew how worth it, it would be! After all we went through to get her here, I can't help but just look at her and smile every time! No matter if she is screaming at the top of her lungs! She's learning how to live in this world, and I'm learning how to parent...we are a team!! 

In just a month, I've learned I always need to be the best version of myself, for her! I will make mistakes, I am only human. I may feel like I'm losing my mind at times or that I can't do anything right. But as long as I am always there when she needs me, knowing she finds comfort in that, I feel like that's a pretty good start to this whole, being a mom thing!  

In just a month, I've learned how freaking hard breast feeding is. Power to all the women doing it or that have done it! While it may be time consuming, exhausting, frustrating, leaves you pinned in one spot for who knows how long with a baby attached to you...it is also very rewarding. It gives you that bonding time with your baby. It gives you satisfaction knowing your child is getting the best nutrients, and YOU are providing that for them! 

In just a month I've learned how much more of a team my husband and I are. He has been so supportive and helpful! I truly know he would do anything for us...he shows us that every day! We are so lucky to have him! 

I am not going to have all the answers to everything! As much as a mother wants to and wants to always be able to make her child stop crying or go to sleep, we aren't always going to have those answers. And that's okay. It's just a part of it! We live through it and  learn more and more every day. Us mothers can't do it all...I learned that very quickly this past month. 

Most importantly, we have learned this little girl ALWAYS comes first! She is our number one priority from here on out! No matter what comes our way in life, HER HAPPINESS and HEALTH is all we care about! 

Despite any of the hard times, this child of mine is still perfect to me! She's beautiful, she's smart and so sweet!! I look forward to life so much more now! This time last year I was in such a dark place. But where I am now is where I belong! Watching Rowan grow is and will be the greatest thing in life! 

I am definitely looking forward to all of these months to come, learning more and more as each day passes! 

Happy One Month Rowie!