Here We Go Again | IUI 2

| December 4, 2015 |

Today we head back up to Cincinnati for our second round of IUI.

Bud's appointment for collection is at 9 am, so we are leaving the house about 6:30 am. The actual procedure appointment will take place at 11 am. We both decided to take the day off of work to try to avoid a million questions about coming into work REALLY late again.

We had a pretty decent drive up, talking a lot about anything other than what we were going through at the time. It was a hazy day, which wasn't helping my mood, but tried to stay as positive as possible.

I started cramping pretty badly at about 7:45 am. I have heard many women, who have normal cycles, say they can feel when they ovulate and that it feels really crampy. I have never felt that before but the past couple of times we have been on this drive up here, after taking the trigger shot, I have REALLY felt that crampy feeling. Hopefully that is a good sign though, meaning I am actually ovulating as planned...but the cramps are fierce. Plus of course, the nerves are not helping either.

We finally arrived and starting walking in for Bud's appointment. I hate that he has to keep doing this part, but we do not have another choice at this point. He's been a trooper about it. Good job babe!

We had some time to kill before our next appointment so we went across the street to a couple of shops. It actually felt like that time flew by and before I knew it, we were heading back over to the doctors office. I remember as we were walking back in, Bud put his arm around me and said

"Well, I'm pretty sure I got you pregnant the other night, but we can try this too just in case!" :) He always seemed to find a way to make me laugh through all of this and before these procedures!

Same steps as last time. Go pick up the sample then head to the other office to check in for the procedure. Once we are sitting back in the room waiting for the doctor, Bud tells me he's nervous. Really? Cuz I'm the one having things shoved up inside me again lol. But I knew what he meant. We just put so much into this already and did not want to keep getting let down. We had been praying so hard that this would be the last time we would have to do this.

I have been a little sick lately with a cough/congestion, and as I am sitting on the table coughing, Bud says to me,

"You better not cough a lot after they inject this, because you will push it all out." Last time he told me I couldn't go pee the whole way home cuz I would mess it up. It was sweet that he's so concerned about it, but highly unlikely.

The doctor finally came in, however it was a different doctor than we had been seeing. Because they have multiple office locations, we could see one of the three doctors during these procedure, depending on what day we are scheduled on. It was a little weird having another doctor take over, but just like everything else with this process, you have to go with the flow.

The process began, and it was a bit more uncomfortable this time, not sure why. Bud held my hand the whole time, and I squeezed the heck out of it. The doctor started talking to us about his daughter and her ambition to become an opera singer. It was a nice distraction, but I couldn't really converse back and forth until he was finished with the procedure.

I just laid there, as him and Bud talked about it, wanting it to be over! Finally when it was over, I could lay there an relax for a few. Same drill, wait two weeks to take a pregnancy test. Before he walked out he was still going on about his daughter, which was sweet, and he said he hopes she gets her dream...and he hoped that we get ours after this time. Gosh, I sure do, too! Now the dreadful 2 week wait begins.

This 2ww was a bit of a blur because of the holidays. I was still not in the Christmas spirit and did not even want to Christmas shop. I hated feeling like that! Turned out my 2 week mark was going to fall on the week before Christmas. Oh the pressure! Good news could be great for this time of the year, but bad news could really set me over the edge. It made us even more scared to take the test. I decided I would wait longer this time to take a test, since the last time did not work out so well. With that being said, Bud and I both agreed to wait until Christmas Eve to take a test, if I did not get my period before then.

It was risky to wait until a holiday to take it, but we had our hopes so high of getting goods news, we wanted to find out on that day. However, after about two days after my 2 week mark, I was getting so anxious because I had no period yet. I was wanting to just go ahead and take one without telling him and then maybe I would actually be able to give him the most amazing gift on Christmas. I hated that we could not be surprised I finding out we were pregnant since we started all of this, so the thought of being able to surprise him made me so happy. But then again, what if its negative? He would be able to tell immediately by the look on my face. I didn't want our holiday to be ruined, but then again, I had an ounce of positivity that I could make it great!

See this was the constant battle I had with myself each month. Its so annoying!

About the 4th day after my 2 week mark, still no period. I was so damn anxious, I could not stand it. Bud was at Wal Mart after work one night, so I just decided to text him about a pregnancy test while he was there...

Sooo...he ended up not getting one, and we are waiting til Christmas Eve to take it...Ahh!